A Bittersweet Anniversary

I know, I know, I haven't posted in a long time! Consider that a good thing, I suppose, that life right now is busy but fairly uneventful at the moment. I will take it for as long as it wants to stay! February was the worst month of my life and it was high time for things to calm down a bit. Sadie started softball and Zack started t-ball, so soon enough there will be lots of posts from their games. Tony and I leave on our 10 year anniversary cruise to Mexico in less than two weeks, so you have those pictures it look forward to as well!!!

April 15 was my parents' anniversary, it would have been their 38th. The days leading up to the 15th were strange, like a black cloud hung over me, and I know it was even worse for my mom. I had flowers sent to Mom's office at World Vision that morning of the 15th, a big surprise for her. I knew it would make her cry and that I definitely wouldn't get a call from her. We both would have been way too emotional. But I got an email after she had calmed herself, and she said she just loved them. Here is a picture of them.
I think that day was a BIG hurdle that was really, really hard getting over, but now that we are over it, things feel a bit lighter. I have been told by others who have lost someone close that the first of everything without that person makes you take a few steps backward in the grief process. I know that every April 15 will be hard, but this first one will probably go down as the hardest by far. One step at a time, right?