April 15 was my parents' anniversary, it would have been their 38th. The days leading up to the 15th were strange, like a black cloud hung over me, and I know it was even worse for my mom. I had flowers sent to Mom's office at World Vision that morning of the 15th, a big surprise for her. I knew it would make her cry and that I definitely wouldn't get a call from her. We both would have been way too emotional. But I got an email after she had calmed herself, and she said she just loved them. Here is a picture of them.
I think that day was a BIG hurdle that was really, really hard getting over, but now that we are over it, things feel a bit lighter. I have been told by others who have lost someone close that the first of everything without that person makes you take a few steps backward in the grief process. I know that every April 15 will be hard, but this first one will probably go down as the hardest by far. One step at a time, right?